I've been struggling with moving into a new season for quite some time. It's time I'm moving on with my life, and here's officially declaring:

This blog is not active anymore. Nor are my other blogs.

I Won't delete them though, they hold too much memories and tales and laughter and tears. So.. keeping them is just for my own narcissism. And perhaps as I review my previous posts I'd find out how much I have and have not grown.

I'll update when, and if, I get a new blog. One thing though, it's not gonna be on blogspot for sure =) Love you all.

Update: Not on blogspot? Oh er.. it's kinda one of the best bloghosts around town. Hehheh.

Ooh HEY I've got a testimonial! Remember Shout Your Fame? Wells, I uploaded the SYF publicity video onto YouTube so that I could link it to my blog, hoping that people would come to the event after seeing the vid. And YOU KNOW WHAT'S SO AWESOME? One guy saw the vid on YouTube as he was browsing for past Singapore Idol vids, 'cos Daphne and Jerry/Gerry Ong were doing the publicity, he brought his friend to Trinity Christian Center, just walked in alone kinda thing, and he got SAVED! =D God does miracles! Hehe.. anyone still thinks He's old-fashioned and not active in today's world?

Show Jumping Take your horse through 4 tough levels in this showjumping game!

Play this free game now!!

I've been having days and weeks that seem caught in the liminal space between the living and the dead. I ooze through the day like a walking zombie, and sleep from 5pm like a corpse till 9pm, wake for dinner, sleep again. Blehh. I think the Curse of the Killer Aedes Mosquito might have come into effect. Hmm. But nevermind, if I ever get hospitalised because of dengue fever, it's not contagious over the internet.

My current fave game, show jumping, cuz it's 3D and it's challenging enough, a far cry from Rakion though, but since I've sworn off Rakion, well, it'll have to do. Seriously. The amount of material one has to have in one's head for the A's is just ridiculous. Not like we'd ever need the stuff again. But again, if they decided that one's personal all-rounded development is more important and they decide to abolish tests but grade all our interpersonal relationships and skills, wouldn't the failures be total abjects and outcasts of society because it basically means they can't communicate with people?

What then is fair and reasonable to base a general grading on? We have to grade people, of course, like grade A eggs and corn eggs and first laid eggs, so that we can get the best people to fit their job descriptions. However unlike eggs, we are unable to get a society in which all the eggs are consumed, whether first laid or 100th laid. Someone is bound to be outcast. Is it that hard to let everyone have the chance to excel at what they are good at?

That raises further questions. What if the person does not make full use of the opportunity and let the chance slip by? How many chances must he be given in order to be 'fairly treated'? What if the person doesn't even know what he's good at?

What if the person's self-confidence and self worth has been trashed and broken in his childhood? Isn't he nothing when grown up, due to him being caught in his fear? Are little children being well taken care of now? If we continue to abuse children, what kind of society are we building up in the years to come? What are we perpetuating for generations to come? We were once children too. Don't rob the young ones of the childhood we longed for.

Got back my midyear results. So there was I, explaining to my phy tutor that I'd not bothered studying physics and so it was natural that I'd fail so badly, (there was an improvement of 4 marks from the last time I didn't study, though) and I think he is in denial.

I do suppose if you're a relatively new teacher, you wouldn't expect a very guai1 student to go up to you and say, "Mr Ng, I didn't study."

--flashbask--
B: Why? [points to marks] Why like that?
A: Well I -
B: Twenty five marks! [stares at A]
[silence]
A: I didn't study.
[B eyes wide]
A: I didn't study at all, you see...
B: I think it's time for you to wake up and put in some effort.
A: [shrugs] Ya.
B: [incredulous stare] There's not much time you know. Only 4 months.. yadda yadda.
A: I know~
B: [wishing it wasn't so] You might have to see the HOD.
A: Oh. Okay.
[B stares]

Oh, look I didn't do it on purpose. Would I want to toy with my tutors at my own expense? But it's my fault anyways, which is why I took a hiatus and am not going back to DnD till after A's. It kinda hurts, but then I was quite prepared for it anyway.

Oh wells. Time to pick up and go.

Actually.. I kinda like the World Cup. It's a very nice time that once in 4 years, the schools and government cuts us a lot of slack, well they can't help it, those people have hormones even behind their uncaring wall, and we can slackkkkk. Haha. By a bit only, but it's better than nothing. Like, I can do my tutorial tomorrow morning instead of tonight. Ok that's procrastination.

M was sharing very much in FUEL that night. I guess the reason why I could identify with her so much is cos somehow I still haven't recovered completely, or maybe it's just a painful past that always reminds me of the pain and fear.

Ooh yeah, I support Italy!

Talking about the world cup, Ata was asking which team I support for the finals, and I asked, "Who's playing?" ...and then stupidly asked, "Confirm already ar?"
Heys...haha I got zero point zero zero one percent knowledge of anything soccer! And I'm not gonna be a poseur and act all soccer mad. Hehe i'm just not a sporting person per se.

During Arts Day they said I did well. In fact I dunno, cos I don't think I have done my best cos I know that I could always do better next time. Always can do better in any area, that's my frame of mind after I do whatever I've done. So.. all I know is that God provided, and I went there and did it, but I still think I could have done better.

Thanks darlings all four of you for turning up! Special thanks for Yun who had to spend a day shopping all around singapore with me =) and do makeup, and accessories and hair and outfit and direct my rehearsals..lol you can be my manager already!

Therefore I'm looking forward to the prelims. Seriously. I know that I can actually pass all my subs if I study, well yea, I didn't study (again) this time. The hard part is to get down to the dirty work of studying. Just like the hard part of hip hop is to get down cos it's a low dance, not some high elegant smooth kind.

Now, the next thing I wanna do, apart from maxing my teleport and mp eater and learning drums is, uh, I forgot. -Thinks- Nevermind, I'll say what it is next time. Oh anyways I cannot access my maple account from now till end of the year cos I've asked my friend to change the password for me so that I'll never be able to get in. Hehe! Gou4 jue2 ba! Thanks God for giving me that idea, if not i'll continue to be enslaved to that stupid game. =)

YAYYYY I also discovered that I like shopping! Er. To a certain extent. And cannot wear heels. Will break my legs. Hahahaha...

Changes changes changes.

Shout Your Fame 2006
1. Joanna sings very very very well. =)
2. Dania was 3rd.
3. Joel was 4th. Hehe.

Andddd even though I was so broken and weary my Daddy's still the best. Love! When after SYF I started doubting my abilities to perform, and doubted that the song was the right one, and doubted about my 'stage presence' and vocals and everything there was to be doubted, someone from the Talentime committee called and asked how I managed to get the minus one. Which reminded me that, hey, this is what I am doing and it's right. And it's gonna be alright! =)

God above all the world in motion
God above all my hopes and fears
And I don't care what the world throws at me now
I'm gonna be all right

Hear the sound of the generations
Making loud their freedom song
All in all that the world would know Your name
We're gonna be all right

'Cause I know my God saved the day
And I know His word never fails
And I know my God made a way for me
Salvation is here

Wish List

1. [Book] Captivating -- John & Staci Eldredge

2. Guys n girls come for SHOUT YOUR FAME on 2 July! =)